I have been struggling lately with giving my life over, fully and completely, to Christ. I feel that moving to another country to work for the Lord is just the first step in what He is calling me to do. The longer I am here, I realize that the clutter of real life is slowly getting in the way. As I make my life in Costa Rica and get settled, I am finding myself distracted by my wants and needs; wanting to spend time with people, getting to travel around the country, and even in the construction work itself. Even though the big picture purpose is ultimately working for the Lord, I forget to focus my thoughts on Him and the kingdom in the moment. My prayers have been centered on thanking God for the blessings he has given me and the amazing things He has done in my life. While it is great to thank him and praise Him, that prayer is still about me. I am looking inward at the ways God has worked in me. I need to remember to live for Him and Him alone, not for myself in His name.
I am a huge fan of music. I get a lot out of songs because they appeal to my emotional side and make me think- which connects the two parts of my brain. I tend to focus in on one song at a time and fixate on it because I feel that it has a message for me. Right now, that song for me is In Your Hands by Christy Nockels.